My secret shame

Unhealable wound of guilt and pride
My deepest secret, my darker side
My strongest regret, my most terrible sin
You can lie without but not within.

Bittersweet apple
The angel did fall
The one mistake that twisted it all
Destroyed what I’ll never have again
My fall from grace, my secret shame.

The line is crossed; there is no turning back.
Rotten and sickening, one of seven so black.
Filled with disgust at this mark on my soul.
I’ve transgressed; I’m scarred, never again whole.

Bittersweet apple
The angel did fall
The one mistake that infected it all
Destroyed what I’ll never have again
My fall from grace, my secret shame.

You’re always there, I can’t truly forget.
Though it’s buried deep, where it can’t be found
Years have passed but it won’t go away
However hard I push it down.

It still haunts me, can’t breathe, can’t sleep.
I can never wash my hands clean.

But the truth is guilt is mixed with pride
I can’t forgive you because the fault is mine.

Bittersweet apple
The angel did fall
The one mistake that changed it all
Destroyed what I’ll never have again
My fall from grace, my secret shame.