Well I'm back.
And I was rude enough to not tell anyone that I was gone. Even though I haven't submitted anything in over 3 months I didn't put myself on hiatus. Guess I should have.
My excuse was exams, mainly and after they stopped I had a bunch of stuff that stopped me relaxing (including my first paid harp engagement and various other musical commitments; including grade 5 theory).
Most of my creative energy has been channeled writing music rather than poetry lately. Many of the the song's lyrics are the poems that you know and *cough* love (ha. I wish). I am determined there will be recordings eventually but I cannot say when. However there will be new poetry posted in the next few weeks including one piece that has been in the bank for almost a year now. You may even be seeing some... PROSE *shocked gasp* if I can get round to it.
Well I must go back to attempting to play Britten's Interlude on the harp now. It's a bitch but it's one of my 'Dream Pieces' so I'm going to try to stick with it. If I manage to master it then all these hours of cursing and banging my head on the harp in frustration will be worth it.
Ta!

I am writing this journal while taking a break from my geography coursework. See, what happened was I had decided to drop this tedious subject on the grounds that it is completely pointless for my future plans, I am already taking 12 GCSEs and two AS and don't need another half one, and I got 10/36 in the first draft of my coursework. My parents and teachers agreed but it couldn't be aranged until January so I spent my Geography lessons since I made the decision pissing about and laughing at my friends while they did their coursework, knowing that I would not have to hand anything in. Then I made the mistake of getting an A on my mock and now I am not allowed to drop it. My parents find this very amusing. I however do not because I have to finish my coursework before we go back to school on Tuesday (as well an english essay and drama coursework) and of course I am waaayyy behind the others because I spent my geography lessons doodling, conducting Nightwish songs and generally goofing off.
So now I am taking a break and ranting to you about what a pointless and soul destroying task I am being forced to undertake. And while I'm here I thought I would share with you a section of a marvelous book called "How to be Right" by James Dellingpole that made me laugh. This book is a "ritous romp through everything that's wrong with modern Britain and its dark forces of PC." Here is what was put for the musician Bono.
"Bono is at a U2 concert and he asks the crowd for some quiet. Slowly, to rapt silence from the audience, he begins clapping his hands and says into the microphone: "Every time I clap my hands a child in Africa dies." A voice from the audience pipes up:
"Well, fucking stop it then.""

Well I have been back to Japan for almost a month now and I can definitely say I had the time of my life. As well as being great fun I learnt about a culture so incredibly different from my own and my grasp of the lanuguage has improved significantly. I am so gratefull that I had the oppotunity to go on this trip, however much I wanted to I don't know if I would have been able to go under my own power and I don't know if I ever will although I certainly hope so. I feel so lucky that I go to a school which makes things like this possible. I feel that, having never gone out of Europe before, my horizons have certainly been broadened.

On a less happy note last week has been Christened the week of epic phail. Notice the ph. I attempted to undertake my grade 5 harp exam and my year 11 mocks at the same time. I unwisely did almost no revision for the mocks so I could focus on my harp exam. I then messed up the harp exam the consequence being I have now failed both. Clever Julia. I have however decided not to be upset about the harp exam until I get the results on the off chance the the examiner might have been deaf. There is also the mocks that didn't require revision that I still have a chance of performing decently in, such as maths which I was worried about but today I found out I got a high B which made me happy because it means I'm on my way to getting my target grade which is an A. So things aren't so bad.

I am also re-reading the best book in the world. This book is one of the things that defines who I am and what I want out of life. Has anyone read it?

Love to everyone, especially dead-starfish who for reasons we both know I am very pleased with at the moment.
You were the only one to get it without prompting Charlie my love! More than I ever expected of anyone!

XxXembraceimperfectionsXxX

Well I am back after my rather dragged out absence from DA.
It said I had been offline for 6 weeks and 1 day. To which I can only say:
Woah.
I have retified the situation however and have posted two new poems, and intend to post many more in the near future. Please check out and comment on Silverweed, it was written very differently to my usual style and I would love to hear people's oppinions.

On a completely unrelated topic, it's only 1 week and 4 days until UchiaTsukiko and I go to Japan! I have been going on an on about this trip for over a year and now the time has come I am feeling a combination of being really excited and scared sh*tless. Excited because we will have the time of our lives, scared because I don't feel that my Japanese has progressed much further than the "hello my name is" stage and in less than 2 weeks I will be alone in a Japanese family, hopefully not offending anyone too severely with my ignorance. Wish me luck, you can be sure that I will tell you all about it when I get back!

~embraceimperfections~

And yes the mood button is stuck. Relief is definitely NOT one of the emotions I am feeling right now.

I have spent the last two weeks in France with deadstarfish. We had an absolutely awesome time but I must say it's good to be home. While I was there I finished the Belgariad which is an absolutely epic series of books and has found it's rightful place on my favourites list.
I also re-read Eclipse (the 3rd book in the Twilight series) in preperation for the release of breaking dawn which I will buy and devour as soon as possible. While lying on a beach I had the revalation that is the title of my journal. He is you know. But not for much longer! HA HA HA HA HA

So now I am home, attempting to compose music on my harp and hopelessly bashing my head at the wall because I have no idea how even to begin doing this stupid drama coursework. So I will ignore it and post all the pretty pictures that were the fruits of my trip.

love to everyone especially deadstarfish who I can't thank enough for taking me on an awesome holiday and putting up with me for 2 weeks!

Oh why do you hate me mood button? The stupid thing STILL won't let me change from relief. It's been stuck like this since May!